kingdom of thoughtless mind... or is it my speechless heart?

awaiting a fresh breeze,
in the kingdom of thoughtless mind...
its quite frightening to look at the
seamlessly infinite horizon of life...

I wonder what to do,
to overcome this syndrome...
however now I seem to enjoy it,
but I'm afraid I'll lose myself if I overdo it!

though making memories is chronological,
its getting a bit random off late!
searching for the perfect silence to break the silence
days pass by waiting for a renaissance...

I do look reloaded, though I know I am not..
is it really the thoughtlessness? or is it the speechless heart?
tough decision I know, but my friend the truth is
I will walk by my broken dreams all my life, looking for this answer!